New York, New York!!!!

So today, Lilli and i are leaving to go on her first airplane ride to upstate NEw York. She's going to meet her Aunt Meagan, Uncle Ken, and cousin Connor for the first time! i'm very excited about it! we have one more month until we go home to san diego. i'm REALLY excited abou that. i love my mom and Sharon and Augusta, but i miss my home and my bed and my things. i want to get Lilli into a good schedule and get a workout schedule going. i'm not doing well on my weight loss at all. part of it is that i don't cook. i eat what my mom and sharon cook and it's not all that healthy mostly. so smart ones, fruits and veggies will be what i eat for the most part. Steve has already lost a lot of weight already and i'm gaining it. Men suck. i really miss him. i'm ready for this stinking deployment to be over!!!!!!!!

I'm baaaack!!!!

i can't believe it but i completely forgot that i even had this blog! things have been so crazy. Steve left at the end of january for West Pas. We're here at Sharon's house on and off for the next month. Lilli is getting so big!! Steve is not going to believe it when he sees her. She has two teeth and is crawling and pulling herself up. She can sit up by herself too. she's such a bubbly little person and i love her so much. She's my reason for being. oh and her Daddy too! ;) I'm busy planning a Christening for May 3rd. i'm very excited about it. It'll be at Sharon's so hopefully there's room for everyone. i may have to change location at last minute! and hopefully the weather holds out! a lot of it will be held outside! On a sadder note, a close friend of mine was killed in a car accident this past weekend. it's so tragic. Her Dad and i are close friends, though he's old enough to be MY dad. She was at my wedding, caught the bouquet and her then fiance caught the garter. He's a submariner as well and didn't find out until tuesday that his wife was dead. She's the first friend of mine to pass away and i'm just heartsick over it. She was only 21 years old and so full of life and dreams. i kept telling her that i would bring Lilli to see her and hadn't gotten the chance yet and now i never will. The viewing is tomorrow and the funeral is saturday. i hope there is someone there for me to lean on because i don't do well at funerals. i just wish i could tell steve about it. i wish he was here to comfort me because i need him. i just have to remember he's doing something great and he's needed by his country. it's just so hard. i was doing really good until this. even when my brand new car was hit by a hit and run driver in a parking lot, i dealt with it and was fine. anyway Lilli is good, i'm good, and I heard from steve a couple weeks ago and he's good too!