5 days...is it January yet?

well It's been 5 days since Steve left and they have been a long, tough 5 days. Besides regular life to attend to, I have been missing him like crazy! I haven't been sleeping well because he's not there. This doesn't exactly put me in a good position to deal with a 2 year old little girl who ALSO misses her Daddy. She's showing it with typical military brat behavior. She's testing me and throwing alot of tantrums. I am just exhausted already! I dont even know how I'm going to handle this when the baby comes. She is so clingy to me and she does NOT like it when i hold other babies and she is not going to deal well when this baby comes. She's too used to having Mama all to herself. It would be so much easier if i had some help. I hate unedrways and i hate when Steve isn't here! :(

Gone. :(

Steve left this morning for a 3 month deployment. He's flying to Guam by way of Pearl Harbor. This is really hard for me this time because it's the first time in a year that he's left and he wont be back in time to see the baby born. DEFINITELY another girl by the way! :) I'm over the bawling mes part and into the depresed part. It's not the he's at sea part that's upsetting to me. It's that i have to give birth without him and it scares me to death. I know women do it all the time, but i don't want to do it without him!!!! I have no idea how Lilli is going to react to him being gone. She may not notice or she may start whining and misbehaving a lot. She's only two and not terribly clingy to her Daddy. So i guess we'll see. Sigh.

I am so bad with this!

I hope everyone is doing well!! We're all good over here on the Great North West! I am 24 weeks today! As for the gender they THINK it's a girl and I'm inclined to agree. I really thought it was a boy, but wasn't that suprised that they think it's a girl! Her name will be Maddison Anne. I'm due Christmas day which i am not excited about..I'm hoping for a couple weeks early or late. Steve Is doing well. He's very excited about being a daddy again! He's graduated from C school and is now a crew member of the USS Ohio Gold crew. Before much longer he will be going on a short deployment, meaning he will not be here for the birth of our baby. :( It's all ok though. My mom is supposed to be here and i have been approved for a military provided doula. So i wont be completely alone when i give birth. Lilli is doing gret! i can't believe she is 2 already. Time flies! She is so well behaved and smart and funny and beautiful! I don't know how we got so lucky!!! This baby is doing great. She's growing and flipping and kicking like crazy. I'm having a problem with sciatica which sucks, but otherwise everything is good!! Morning sickness is gone and i feel great!!!

FINALLY

So I am guessing that most of you already know this, but Steve, Lilli and I are expecting a new addition to our family. We are so excited!!! I am 9 weeks along and i have a strong feeling that it's a boy! Either way we'll be happy but I just have a feeling! We'll keep you updated!!!

Quick Update

So a lot has been going on since January. Steve and I have been participating in The Biggest Loser program here on base and we had our finale last night. Overall i came in 11th out of 45 with a 15 lb weight loss and Steve came in 5th with a 32 lb weight loss. We aren't done losing weight! Steve has to for work and i want to. I have a motto. 135 lbs or bust!! Steve turned 33 on March 22. We made a red velvet cake and just spent time together. next year, if he's home i'll probably throw him a party! Lilli is doing really well. Getting into the terrible 2's and throwing tantrums which drives me nuts! She's growing soo fast and getting so smart. Still not saying much but we're getting there! I'm doing pretty well. We're still trying to conceive though it isn't going well. Hopefully this month! We'll see. I hope everyone is doing well!

beautiful!

so i found this picture on my cell phone and emailed it to myself. this was taken minutes after i gave birth and i think it's the most beautiful sight i've ever seen. Enjoy!

more new pics of Lilli